peace out.

i guess this is the scratch
that itches the itch
guess its true what they say
and karmas a bitch
guess this is your way
of getting me back
i understand, though
dont cut me any slack.
ive done this to you
time and again
guess i havent been
such a great friend
guess i get a taste
of my own medicine
and Lord only knows
i wont do this again
ive never had the fear
of being replaced
one day you wont even
recognize my face
you just go right ahead
and lift her higher than me
and one day if she dumps you
then youll probably see
you jacked this way up
and its far too late
to recover this friendship
youll lose belief in fate
ive decided to mute my mouth
but i have words up my sleeve
that could hurt you in an instant
like you wouldnt believe
but ill rise above that
and just walk away
i'll leave you be now
please forget me, today.

life.

I think life is hard
and that’s where friends come in
I think life is easy
and that’s where friends come in
I think life is deliberate
there are no mistakes
I think there are no coincidences
there are no mistakes
I think there is no place for violence
don’t hate, appreciate
I think there is no place for murder
don’t hate, appreciate
I think life is a mystery series
live it page by page
I think life is list of questions
live it word by word
I think life is about relationships
friendships
hardships
big ships
and chocolate chips.
I think life is a journey
not to be lived alone
I think life is precious
not to be lived alone
I think when life gets tough
you’re tired and broke
that’s when you get together
have a drink and a smoke
I think when life is smooth
you’re living easy and free
put away the chemical joy
live and love your family
when you lose your loved ones
know they’re in a better place
when you get some new ones
make it a better place
when you see the hungry
give them their fill
when you see the sad
remind them of His will
when you see the angry
let them vent
when you see the poor
pay their rent
when you see the broken
and the lonely
and the empty
give them joy
hope
peace
love.
I think life’s about helping each other
because we can’t do it alone
we need each other.
forget the haters
the confrontaters
the liars
the cheaters
life’s about love
don’t get lost in yourself
it’s a lonely place
instead, share what you have
and you’ll find your place.
It’s not about the money
it’s not about the sex
it’s not about the drugs
it’s about the time we have
the music
the kisses
the hugs
the abstract things that aren’t concrete
make these be known
the things you can’t see
you can only be shown.

its over.

ive lived my life in fastforward
not on purpose, of course
ive lived and loved
ive let nature take its course
ive walked the walk
and danced the dance
i've given my first
and my last chance
looking back
on these twenty years
ive been so happy
and now it appears
that i'm nearing the end
i'm past my prime
my life is over
it's almost time
so now i spend my time
lying in bed
waiting for this thought
of you to leave my head
and waiting impatiently
for my final breath
so i can whisper goodbye
and fade to my death.

fin.

I’m done giving chances
For every chance ive ever given
Has blown up in my face
And every man
Ive ever liked
Has put me in my place
I will listen to no one
Only my heart
So no one but me
Will tear me apart
Every guy
Ive ever liked
Is exactly the same
Whisper sweetly
To me my name
But what they want
Means nothing more
Then getting off
And that im a whore
And then they walk away
Without another glance
And that is why
He was the last chance.

giving up.

my hearts a heart of stone
but it's been ground into sand
with the simplest of words
and a mere touch of your hand
and no one wants to try
to piece it back together
because sand is unstable
and blows away in strong weather
i never thought id be
as empty as i've become
and i didn't think you were
and don't think you're the one
i'd take a knife in the chest
or a bullet to the brain
anything at all
to get rid of all this pain
to me: breathing is hurting
so there's one thing to do
get rid of this, get rid of me
and that'll get rid of you.

me.

every day i live
every breath i take
i'm convinced
is a mistake.
i hold no purpose
in this place.
my heart is empty.
cant you see it in my face?
my eyes have no luster.
my voice is hollow.
my soul is lifeless.
my smile is shallow.
the person i once was
has faded with age
has folded its cover
and torn every page.
no amount of comfort
no amount of love
could pick me up
and lift me above
the hell i live in
every second of every day.
nothing you could do.
nothing you could say.
nothing.
i am nothing.

close my eyes.

when i close my eyes
this is where i go
im standing on a pier
removing all my clothes
no one is looking for me
im somewhere no one knows
i prepare for my dive
not once do i look back.
bend my knees and jump.
right then my sight goes black.
my body slices through
the water engulfs me whole
im lost in this ocean
my heart, my mind, my soul
still diving to the bottom
and when i reach the sand
the ocean comes to greet me
a smile and open hand
i crawl inside its fingers
and let it bury me
naked, alone, hiding
god knows i'm finally free
the ocean dances around me
the water in my chest
i breathe the water in and out
that is the final test
laying on the ocean floor
this is right where i belong
ive given all control
no longer am i strong
i own nothing
nothing of who i am
the waters taken everything
as i rest in its hands
the god the earth is missing
is found down here below
dive off that pier
and swim right here
and love, you'll surely know.