6.24

if i could
i would
throw my elbow
at your face
break your pretty nose
put you in your place
if i could
i would
knee you in the throat
then leave a sticky note
with a quote:
"break my heart, i'll break your bones"
lessons learned
tables have turned
you are now where i once was
i do understand
i just dont care
so i wanna pound your spine
pull out your hair
break your back
snap your arm
this is just a poem
i mean no harm
unless you contact me
one more time
then...
you're mine.

5.13

if i had a dime
for every moment i wished
i could go back in time
id have enough money
to build a time machine
and rewrite everything.
if i had nickel
for every joke you told me
every laugh, every tickle
every inside memory we shared
nothing compared.
if i had a fucking penny
for every time i think this
for every day
for every kiss
every story we ever told
thoughts of us
both young and old
the life we planned
the time that spanned
living in the moment
together
alone
then it was unknown
but now...
if i had a dime
for every time
i regret losing you then
id be the richest, sadest,
son of a bitch theres ever been.
im sorry.

you know who this is about...

with every breath you take
i hate you a little more
with every mistake you make
within me, more hatred is born.
every morning that you open your eyes
is another miserable day
ive never in my life despised
anything so much...go away.
do us all a favor and disappear
it doesnt matter how
let me make myself clear...
drink some cyanide
use a gun
or maybe a kife
i know you have one
youve stabbed me in the back with it
countless times
you're the reason
for all of my rhymes
do me a favor, put your hand on your chest
where your hearts supposed to be
notice its not beating
because its empty
gve yourself a shot
or you could take a pill
you want someone to help you?
i know someone who will
do us a favor and disappear
remove your face from existence
cause no one wants you here.

Karma....

I put my foot in the fire
And it burned to bits
I put my heart in your hands
And you threw a fit
I put my love in your arms
And you treated me like shit
Now I’m done.
You’ll be sorry.

I put my strength in your soul
And you so let me down
Now I’m falling apart
Nothing but pieces on the ground
I’m a worthless piece of shit
And you’re nowhere around
Now I’m done.
You’ll be sorry.

You don’t have to believe in karma…
…for her to bite you in the ass.
Now I’m done.
You’ll be sorry.

first love.

Three long years
Come to a close
We give back belongings
Books and clothes
I let your memories
Fall from my mind
With thoughts of us
From past times
As I close that door
And throw the key
I walk away
So peacefully
The pain, this time
Is slow and deep
No anger, no violence
A silent weep
I’ve burned the pictures,
The notes and songs
I still don’t know
What I did wrong
I lower my head
And forget your face
I walk away
So out of place
My steps are shorter
My breaths are too
My life has been altered
With the loss of you.

just another lonely night.

let the rain fall on me tonight
disguise my tears
so when you ask whats wrong
I can fake sincere

let the fire leave my eyes
extinguish distinguished
lord knows its no surprise
my time here is meaningless

let my heart roll to the floor
sweep the pieces
I’ll watch you leave once more
just leave me in pieces

I’ll never learn my lesson with you.

peace out.

i guess this is the scratch
that itches the itch
guess its true what they say
and karmas a bitch
guess this is your way
of getting me back
i understand, though
dont cut me any slack.
ive done this to you
time and again
guess i havent been
such a great friend
guess i get a taste
of my own medicine
and Lord only knows
i wont do this again
ive never had the fear
of being replaced
one day you wont even
recognize my face
you just go right ahead
and lift her higher than me
and one day if she dumps you
then youll probably see
you jacked this way up
and its far too late
to recover this friendship
youll lose belief in fate
ive decided to mute my mouth
but i have words up my sleeve
that could hurt you in an instant
like you wouldnt believe
but ill rise above that
and just walk away
i'll leave you be now
please forget me, today.