brink.

i'm sitting here
eyes welling
face burning
heart swelling
i'm on the brink
of a thousand tears
washing down
these droughted fears
i'm sitting here
chest pounding
teeth grinding
silence surrounding
i'm on the brink
of giving up on you
of leaving here
starting fresh and new
i'm sitting here
tongue lashing
fist throwing
teeth gnashing
i'm on the brink
of fucking screaming
straight in your face
if i were dreaming...
i'd be sitting here
actually feeling fine!
no thoughts of you
rushing my mind
i'd be sitting here
happy as can be
but i'm not fucking dreaming
this is too real to me.