Sunday, July 8, 2012

die in a hole.

it's been a while since we split.
believe it or not i still feel like shit.
crying myself to sleep is getting old.
trying to find a way to turn myself cold.
to rid my heart of these feelings.
and to deal better with these dealings.
i hate thinking of you and being hurt.
you left me face down in the dirt.
i would do anything to hurt you back
as much as you've hurt me.
i wish i could break you down
if i didnt have morals
id give you to a dirty trucker.
bitch i would ruin you.
die in a hole mother fucker.

Friday, July 6, 2012


im giving up the hurt i have
the pain that inhabits my soul
im giving up on giving a shit
cause shit belongs in a hole.
im sick and tired of being angry
and feeling low and depressed
i got my ass out of bed today
and i started hurting less.
i have to keep telling myself
dont give a fuck, youre fine
i keep reminding myself
its beginning to soak in my mind.
i need to find happiness again
in the little things in life
like flowers and birds and dancing
movies and dinners with my wife.
i need to laugh more than cry
lifes too short to be sad
i have amazing support here
THE best mom and dad.
selfishness breeds depression
selflessness breeds relief
bring on the happiness and laughter
im dropping the pain and the grief.
blah blah blah sob story stuff
no ones more lonely than i
im sick of feeling feelings
im going to go eat some pie.