being a hippie never sounded so good.

they dont shave their legs
theyre high all the time
they smoke whenever they can
theyre songs never rhyme
they live on a bus
friends are easily made
pass around a blunt
put on some shades
walk around town
with no shoes on their feet
no shirt on their back
with little food to eat
respected for their kind
and cursed for their style
sounds like a deal to me
maybe ill try it for a while.

i hold my head high

ive traveled through
those hills and plains
ive battled through
the snow and rain
ive talked the talk
and fought the fight
and this time now
right here tonight
i can say for real
im proud of me
for becoming the woman
ive always wanted to be
ive another notch
in my belt of life
add another metal
another stripe
im a new person
ive won this race
i can feel it in my blood
i can see it in my face
every second now today
is as important as the last
and everything that goes by
is left there in the past
i am who i want to be
a new strong woman, am i
ill stand my ground
ill walk tall and
ill hold my head high.

8 inches.

sometimes the snow
makes me feel lonely
but this time it didnt
but it has only
snowed for one day
there are more days to go
to be hidden in this dust
to be lost in the snow
it hides my shadow
as it covers the earth
reminding each of us
of dear Christ's birth
but thats not it at all
christmas isnt the season
the snow's of itself
of only one reason
to cover my tears
to match with my heart
so cold and so wicked
and this is only the start
the season has begun
and only time will tell
what this snow will bring
will it bring me hell?
will it add to this feeling?
this miserable digression?
will it ease
or fuel this depression?
as the days get shorter
and the sun fades at noon
i'm hoping this snow
hasnt come too soon

comfort.

this wasnt my work....this was the work of David.

Psalm 13:1-6

O Lord, how long will you forget me?
Forever?
How long will you look the other way?
How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,
with sorrow in my heart every day?
How long will my enemy have the upper hand?
Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!
Restore the light to my eyes, or I will die.
Don't let my enemies gloat, saying. "We have defeated him!"
Don't let them rejoice at my downfall.
But I trust in your unfailing love.
I will rejoice because you have rescued me.
I will sing to the Lord
because he has been so good to me.

no tomorrows.

we have one promise
not of tomorrow, of today
of these last few hours
before the sun sinks away
we only have now
only this single minute
to make it count
to live in it
we have one try
only one chance
to walk this walk
to dance this dance
today is all we have
and all we ever will
no more waiting
no time to kill
i have this second
to decide my fate
to be myself
before it's too late
i'm alive now
i'm breathing again
who knows where i'll go
who knows when
with no tomorrows
the time is now
to pick myself up
i'll make this vow
to never get stuck
in a restless routine
i'll mean what i say
and say what i mean.

todays the day

todays the day
it feels the worst
as if my heart
is going to burst
todays the day
i cried again
i havent done that
since who knows when
my life is broken
my eyes grew cold
my smile has faded
with no one to hold
no one to talk to
there's no one for me
there's a deep, empty hole
where my heart used to be
my world is crumbling
my head is aching
my life is over
my heart keeps breaking
theres no one here
to stop me now
just the voice in my head
telling me how
how to end this madness
relieve this pain
push back the storm clouds
and stop the rain
theres only one way out
it looks quite inviting
they're calling my name now
with thunder and lightning
im letting go
im giving in
no more burden
no more sin
todays the day
i say
goodbye

lost.

who am i?
where am i?
why am i here?
whats the point?
im at the end of my shadow
the last of my breath
im feeling so empty
with no more life left
empty hands
empty hearts
no one cares
im ripped apart
where are the angels
where is the strength
why am i hollow
why am i blank
where is my savior
where is my reason
i just fade away
like the passing of a season
no one reaching out to me
no one trying to care
i search and search
but no one's there
where do i go
what do i do
why am i here
where the hell are you
i give up
theres no time
for me to fight
or finish this rhyme
i give up
i quit